DO LIFE NOW PAY IT FORWARD SMELL THE FLOWERS

It has been a long time since I posted and mostly due to my own self pity, boredom and laziness. I am still not working and my online web work is null and void. The site I was writing for went down due to the horrible state of our combined finances. I have tried to do my own page but it just won’t seem to gel and comes across and just another blog page. Am still thinking and trying to come up with a good idea for a working paying web site but can’t seem to get inspired. I had an interview the other day for a job with the state of NV but once again the fix was in or so it seemed when a young 20 something girl came in after me and knew one of the interviewers personally so I did not even get passed the first cut of applicants. My gut tells me the job will come up again in a few months when she doesn’t pass her 90 day probation due to poor attendance or lack of ability to learn the workings of a major government office and it’s procedures. I will keep trying since our illustrious Congress voted down extending unemployment benefits for the millions of hard-working people who can not find a job. One more promise made by our president to put people back to work. Hmmm glad I didn’t vote.

Mother’s Day came and went without much fan fare and so did Father’s Day. Hubs got the TV and stereo system upgraded with a new remote and things are working pretty good and we are also waiting for Apple to get shit together so he can get his new phone.
I did however get a new buddy. His name is Toby and he is a 3-year-old Maltese and is just the best pup ever. Smart loving easy to take care of and my shadow. This is Toby and all of our other animals love him too even the cats.

My son is home from college for the summer and is working at Office Max he is lucky to have a permanent spot there since he is really good with computers and people. He is only working part-time but is still something to save for when he goes back to school at the end of August. He is going to live off campus this coming year and so may not be back for a while since he would still have to pay rent and expenses to get home and back so Christmas will be the first without him. We are thinking about getting him a car so he has his own transportation at school and can drive there and back and not be dependent on airlines. It will take him longer to get here but won’t cost much more if we can get a car with good mileage.

I miss my Dad as usual this time of year and for some reason it is harder not easier and he has been gone for about 18 years. It might be because my Mom just turned 78 and we have not talked in more time than I can remember. Her choice not mine since I have called and left messages and she doesn’t call back. Her loss not mine.

There are so many things going on that are really pissing me off lately and the anger is not healthy I know and I try to not let it affect me. The state of unemployment, the loss of homes, the health system and the oil spill that seems to have been ignored from the beginning and now is so bad it can’t be ignored but is still not being stopped. Just blow the damn thing up and close the hole that simple. Our country is just so disappointing right now I can’t even begin to sort out my feelings. I still try to do kind things for people and help in any way I can and not get caught up in all of the negative energy outside of my own little world but it has always been hard for me to detach myself from the world around me.

Well enough of the pity party for now things will get better all happens for a reason and soon it will come to light. Take care all who read my blog pass it around and comment good or bad input is helpful.

Remember always DO LIFE NOW PAY IT FORWARD AND THE MORE YOU SMELL THE FLOWERS THE LESS THEY MAKE YOU SNEEZE. <3

Wow I didn’t realize it has been since just before Christmas that I last posted to my blog. So much has happened since then I may not be able to put it all on here today. Christmas and New Years came and went, my #3 son and I had our first champagne toast on New Years Eve 2010 just before he left for college in Georgia. He will be home in June for the summer, hopefully work and then back to Georgia and not sure if he is going to be coming home again at Thanksgiving. He is talking about living off campus and getting a job in Savannah so if that happens coming home will be less often. I miss him and yet I also have a sense of freedom from the worry of having him here all the time. A mom never really stops worrying but when the children leave home it is easier after a while.

In February there was a situation with a neighbor which was pretty bad and it escalated in March and we had major damage done to our home as a result. The repairs took almost all of our tax return so things we had planned on doing were delayed again until who knows when. I am just starting to feel safe again more as each day passes. Karma will pay it forward to these cruel people who have no respect for others or themselves.

I still do not have a job and there doesn’t seem to be any light at the end of the tunnel, in fact I can’t even see the tunnel itself it is so dark on the job front. I am trying to find a way to fill my time with positive things. I have tried to become a foster parent for animals abandoned by people who have left them after losing their homes but that hasn’t worked out either. I am working part time for a groomer on the barter system for pet food and grooming for my cat. That keeps me busy but is hard since I want to bring most of the dogs home with me.

It is hard for me to not be bitter these days with issues such as the oil spill in the gulf of mexico, the people of Iceland who are suffering with the volcano explosions and no one seeming to care about helping them but crying poor me over lose of revenue from loss of air flights and giving so much to Haiti. What makes the people of Iceland less deserving than the Haitians? In my opinion the Icelanders are more deserving. They are hard working, honest, giving and caring people who would help any stranger not like the Haitians who would cut your throat, rape any woman and steal the shirt off of your back just because they can. The Haitian people have been given money and help for years and still have not changed their way of life and never will. It really makes me sick.

I just watched Avatar. I have not been touched by a movie since I first saw Dangerous Minds which is now one of my favorite movies and I watch it anytime I can when it is on TV even with commercials. I know some may say that there is no similarity but think about it. Both movies are about hope, faith, love, trust and most of all life and what we do with our time and what we believe in for ourselves and our future.

With all of the mess going on in this world of ours and no one really seeming to care about changing it I want to go to Pandora and be a Navi.
I do believe and have always believed in the existence of other worlds, spirits and the power of love of life. In a perfect world this is how we all could live and be and survive maybe someday maybe somehow. Enough for now going to watch Mr. Destiny with the hubs, it is one of his favorite movies and there is absolutely nothing worth watching on the tube but that is for another day. My opinion of the current television viewing choices and the effect it has on our minds.

Take care for now and remember: a smile is free to give but priceless to receive so give someone a smile it will make both of you feel much better.